over...underwhelmed.

overwhelmed:
-20 ppl in the house. "family reunion." my room, my car, my life...no longer my own. constantly loud. constantly annoying.
-signed lease on new place. paying more than i can afford. move-in date in less than 2 weeks. where did the summer go?
-to-do list has now exceeded two pages. have only scratched off a handful of things, all summer.

underwhelmed:
-not one of my friends is currently in town. am bored.
-when my other email account notifies me of a new message, feel a twinge of excitement...only to find messages from netflix or southwest or element lounge. damn.
-am over shopping. completely. even though spending parental money. have no desire to buy work clothes, shoes, bags, nothing. not even new car. keep putting everything off.


feeling so frustrated, irritated. so apathetic, lethargic. don't know.