thursday, la madrugada

I'm so hard for a rich girl
My heels are high, my eyes cast low
And I don't know how to love
I get too tired after mid-day, lately

I take it out on my good friends
But the worst stays in
Or where would I begin?

My office glows all night long
It's a nuclear show and the stars are gone
Elevator, elevator
Take me home.

sneaky

i feel so delightfully sneaky. i'm sitting at home, in my pajamas, at 3 pm.

i don't have the day off.
i'm not sick
i just...didn't go.

i don't feel bad at all, mainly because i had absolutely no work to do today anyways. somehow, the stars aligned on this one day, and i have no meetings, nothing due, nada. at most, i could be doing expense reports and time entry. so rather than sit bored at my desk all day, pretending to do work, i decided to just not go.

granted i let people know i wasn't coming. this morning, when i woke up at 9 am, i told my project team and the admins...i obviously had to lie, and i said i had food poisoning from mexican food i had for dinner last night.

ah, last night. it was bizarre. i drove home around 7 with the noble plan of going for a jog, doing laundry, and then passing out. instead, my ass found its way to the sofa (our sofa is too damn comfy) and i passed out...at 7 pm. next thing i know, i woke up at 1:30 am. i had missed calls from friends i was supposed to meet up with, i hadn't gotten anything done...and it was then that i realized, what the hell, i'm just not going to go tomorrow.

yesterday i was pretty depressed for some reason, but today, the sun is shining in through the balcony and it's absolutely beautiful outside. i don't regret this at all. i've gotten shit done too: i cleaned my apt, did laundry, cooked a very healthy lunch for myself, and watched some quality r&BB. as soon as my laundry's out of the dryer, i'll go for a jog, shower, and be able to hang out with friends as if i just got off work.

i'm so thrilled with myself right now, i'm grinning. taking one single, bland wednesday off for no planned reason has made me feel 100x better than i did yesterday...ridiculous. i recommend it to all who have the balls...just do it.

you can't make this shit up.

Facebook: Hey, you have one new friend request!
Me: I'm at work, I'll check it later.
Facebook: But he sent you a message.
Me: Fine. I'm sure you'll cover me when I get fired for billing my clients $200/hr while I peruse facebook profiles.

Facebook Msg: Hey!
between You and Mack

Hello,Well, i was just surfing through the site cos I'm new here. Suddenly, I got a glimpse at your profile....what I saw was a damsel. Anyway, i here to meet someone that is ready for long last relationship and decided to say Hi. How are you doing? guess you doing great thou, I would really love to know you better, if you give the opportunity to. Serious in my search for a soulmate. I am NOT looking for multiple girlfriends for fun. I am seeking my one and only soulmate. I am focused on maintaining an extremely healthy body, mind, and spirit. I am very happy with my life. I lead an active life full of interesting adventures. I have many interests. I am looking for a family oriented lady, with high values and principles, I want a lady who is not greedy and is sweet and with good sense of humor, willing to be with me in the good and the bad times, femenine, caring, atractive and fit. Somebody who wants to be happy and wants to love and be love. Too numerous to mention them all in a box. Nice smile you got.
Hope hearing from you soon.

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a few hours later...
Facebook: Hey, you have another friend request!
Me: Jesus, who is it this time?
Facebook: Meet Bony!
Me: Are you fucking kidding me.
Facebook: Guess what Bony's doing?
Me: eating shit
Facebook: Bony is dreaming to US..A.
Me: ...fabulous.

what's up, doc?

so today i had the dreaded "woman's doctor" appt.
you know, the one where you get to feel all cold and squeamish and horribly awkward as you discuss your sex life and health with a random phsyician's assistant...who is probably younger than you and getting some a lot more often.

it's been over a year since i've seen the doctor, and clearly i was not working when i went last. it was insane how many of the components of my work i saw in this one visit.
i guess only my coworkers will understand this post...but my marketing brain when haywire. i saw so many opportunities and leverage points along the treatment process i nearly went berserk.

i observed how i signed in, how long i waited, what was available for me to read, what pamphlets were on the counter. i noted what kind of healthcare staff took my vitals, my history, and answered my questions. i saw a rep for a competitor product to the one i'm currently working on walk in the door. i saw how she dressed, what she carried, how she interacted with the doctor. i counted the time i waited, cold and naked in the room, for the doctor to show up. i examined all the medical tools and supplies, and mused how i would recognize them anywhere, considering they were all manufactured by one of my previous clients. and how the wholesaler that supplies this particular clinic was also once a client.

there were some moments i felt like piping up, and saying hey! i know this. i know your world. i know how this works, so be real with me. at one point, after being relatively quiet i told them to run a fasting lipid panel, Hematocrit and Hgb, and calculate my Gfr. they looked at me in utter confusion. "are you in med school or something?" they said. in the end i didn't even get the labwork that i wanted becuase the doctor was a little iffy on the insurance situation. ah reimbursement-my favorite part of the treatment process.

anyways it was beyond weird to be on the consumer side of things for a change, and to see how what i do on daily basis actually affects the way thing are run. that is all.

why now?

forreal?

Dear Alaska Airlines and Horizon Air Traveler,

You may have heard that we will be discontinuing service on our Orange County-Oakland route. Our last flight will be on April 26, 2008.

These kinds of decisions are very hard to make and they become even harder knowing we have loyal customers like you who have flown with us often in these markets in the past. However, with oil nearing record highs and the fact that this particular market has financially under-performed, we were pushed to reallocate this aircraft to other routes that will be stronger performers.

Although we are leaving this market, you can continue to earn Alaska miles and MVP/MVP Gold status qualification when you fly with our partner, American Airlines. American offers nonstop service between Orange County and both San Jose and San Francisco.

With that in mind, we truly wish to thank you for your business; it really does mean a lot to us. We hope you will continue to fly with us on this route before April 26, 2008. After that, we hope that Alaska Airlines and Horizon Air can still be part of your travel plans when you head to any of our 92 other destinations.

Sincerely,
Alaska Airlines

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I think I was the sole source of revenue for that route.
I rode that thing good, for 4 years straight.
End of an era, man.

i adore him.

Matt Damon does Matthew McConaughey

in places you didn't know you had inside you

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door.
And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

-Iris, The Holiday

i'm on my way

chicago my love, i can't wait to meet you in a blanket of white.






















*i'm anxious. but good anxious, the kind that puts those damn butterflies in the tummy. i absolutely fell in love with chicago in the summer, and i told myself that if i can handle the winter weather on this trip, nothing will stop me from moving there. this is it!

though yesterday it came to my attention that my company will soon open a downtown SF office. this is kind of huge news, and could change my plans. we shall see.

it was the best of times, it was the worst of times

2007 in 12:

1. i mourned the loss of my best pal, bailey

2. visited the motherland

3. i got alcohol poisoning in tahoe. i also had the time of my life.

4. fuck valentines day

5. my mama got really, really sick.

6. i lead a team of 30 to, uhh, non-victory...but i did the leading. and i learned a lot.

7. psychology b.a., business administration, b.s. <--i earned 'em.

8. i turned 22.

9. summer travel [napa, hawaii, seattle, tennessee, chicago]

10. i moved to los angeles and joined the working world

11. i bought my first car. on my own!

12. first holiday partay, haha



my pal h_balls says, "2008 is going to a be a good year, i can feel it."

i hope he's on to something.